i once dreamed that im on a place i consider dreamland.
when everything there is perfect.
the ambience. the fresh air that soothes my soul. the flowers that everyone will love to smell. the birds that hums peacefully. the guy i dreamed of. the bliss. it was perfect.
and there’s this guy. in the dreamland.
as i was walking, i saw him.
i saw a man i never thought could’ve existed.
we fell in love with each other so deeply.
were happy together living there.
no sorrows. no heartaches. only happiness and contentment to each other.
i started a new life with him. i change everything i need to change about myself.
time goes on and on. people around us thinks that we have a perfect relationship.
yes we have.
were damn crazy whenever were together.
were partners in crime.
seems like our world is on each other.
we had our own world.
this man made me fall for him everyday and it bacame a routine.
those sweet times.
he’s my prince and im his princess.
he kisses my feet. cooks food for me.
he does everything i say.
it was perfect.
but as i aged up.
i realized that nothin is perfect in this world.
we dream of something’s perfect but it doesn’t work out that way.
we get hurt. rejected. we fail.
and sometimes it ruins our lives.
sad.
coz sometimes all good things that we expects to last comes to an end.
then we blame ourselves why we let those things happens.
we hate. we curse. till we find our hearts exhausted.
exhausted of the things that we thought were the one who lose.
we became bitter.
not knowing that we are the one who never let those past becomes past.
we hold on to things that we know will hurt us.
instead of releasing pain through forgiveness or whatxoever,
we rehearse it over and over in our minds.
we internalize our anger and sometimes explode it into others.
while our offender has forgotten the offense and gone on with life,
we continue to stew in our pain.
perpetuating the past.
but then i realized.
those who have hurt me in the past
cannot continue to hurt me now unless i hold on to the pain through resentment.
my past is past!
nothin will change it.
im only hurting myself with my bitterness.
for my own sake i learn from it and then let go.
or if not,
it will be a foolish and senseless thing to do.
life is full of uncertainty.
we wake up in the morning not knowing where and how life takes us.
we go with the flow.
we smile. we hurt. we laugh. we cry. we love. we fall.
but then i chose to be happy.
to love. to give my heart out.
because i already knew how it is to be hurt.
yes. its miserable.
but its a part of living.
we dont have to stay sad for long.
i chose to be happy. to be with him.
to love him. not knowing till when we will be over.
because theres him.
the one who listens to things i say in the middle of the night.
who broke my heart. and then fix.
someone who lifts me up when i cant carry on any longer.
that person who hugs me so tight as he can to make me feel secure.
and we will never stop loving each other.
we will never run off even if it hurts us so much.
ryt baby?
we will never forget those butterflies-in-the-stomach feelings.
smiling without any reason.
never let a day passed without txting each other.
endless ‘goodnights’ and iloveyous’
‘mornins’ ‘maen kna’ nothin compares!
now that ive grown up.
i learned. and i know now how to let go.
i know how to make myself happy.
i know how to make others happy.
even when im down. i can make them smile.
sometimes were mad.
we let things that comes out to our mouth be said.
we never cared for each others feelings.
because were mad.
we get disappionted
but the good thing is.
we never stay mad for long.
we love each other. xo much.
im happy because i have him.
we have each other.
im done with heartaches.
my heart broke by piece.
but its not the end of me.
as i said.
im abosulutely sure of choosing to be happy.
once i became cautious of some things.
im afraid to venture out.
i play it safe.
im always trying to avoid risks.
because i fear.
but how could i be happy if i dont let things happen.
it will only keep me from becoming what GOD intends me to be.
last night we picture ourselves to reality.
that we are just passersby.
he said that he is not the one who will stand there waiting for me while walkin down the aisle.
im not the girl he will kiss when he raise the veil.
it hurts me to think.
that someday we will have no choice but to give it up.
it will be over.
god! i hate endings.
i hate happy endings.
i want to go on. with him.
i never felt this overwhelm feelings before.
i want him to be mine.
if i dont ask him to be mine.
ill regret it for the rest of my life.
because i know.
in my heart.
he’s the only one for me 
love you babe!
June 27th, 2008 at 6:17 am so in love ka naman! i’m happy for you.
June 27th, 2008 at 6:43 pm It’s his loss not yours… move on…. life is a constant change in reality.
June 27th, 2008 at 8:30 pm ui…
nak’S
gudLak jan sa bagO mOng Luv Lyt jen..,’
hehe..,’ kya mO yAn..,’ ^^,
June 28th, 2008 at 4:29 am i love reading diz one:)
thankx for ur commentz!
i hope i mde the right choice.
June 28th, 2008 at 11:52 am i cnT beLive dis girL at oL =)
shE wriTes and expres heR filingz 4 me .. 4 everyonE tO know how much xoxo sHe Loves mE ! im happY and contenTed
iloveyou
sincerLy youRs ..
pauLo OniA GarCia ..
June 28th, 2008 at 4:29 pm hay! hope i was da one… hehehehehhe!!
July 1st, 2008 at 8:23 am wish i was ur prince… ehe…
July 5th, 2008 at 5:42 pm it’s like hugging a cactus
you know it’s alive but there’s
now reply..
the greater you hug it
the greater pain..
kasabihan ng mga nasawi sa
pag-ibig..=)
July 24th, 2008 at 7:42 am ♥nAkx perfect match!
i think u made dA ryt cHoice!
gudLuck! dOnt mind dEm juz dO wat mAkes u happy…tc♥